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/♥ Breaking down-

Thursday, April 2, 2009
Don't leave @; { 11:43 PM }

Today, I don't know what to say... Mother Tongue, I feel like quitting. The teacher is BORING~. Music, the teacher is LAME~. Literature, the teacher is KIND~, but today she angry cause we noisy. -.-". Bao Fei today also gone for competetion, nobody beside me, don't know is happy or sad.

History~, I should like it, but today, I feel... emo. I was totally quiet during History lesson. I kept listening la, but no talk lor. I only asked Zhiyi afew questions, cause I cannot see the other side what Mr Ken writing. But then Zhiyi like no hear me what I say. So I was like, wtf. I do all of those myself ba. Shan Le and Gillian kept singing songs behind me. So... dotz. I was sitting on my seat, ... Quiet~. I kept copying notes lor, that's all. Today, really, Mr Ken teach fast, and we from the starting of China, fly to Starting of India le, very fast le. I understand la, I know what he meant, no questions, except I forget what is the general meaning of 'administration' or something like that.

I sat there, in daze sia. I don't know what I'm thinking, or maybe I don't wanna think, or even I'm just dazing because I'm bored, or whatever. Later, after lesson, I copied alot, 1 lecture pad page, including behind. I got alittle bit no understand, cause I in daze then missed alittle. Lol, but then, I still copied notes down, use brains and fill in those which I missed.

Later, took the lecture pad give Mr Ken, tell him check for me if got wrong anot, I not sure... Then, I just wait there lor, ... emo-ly. Later, he check le, then, he say nothing wrong, then he asked me if I angry. Cause of using me as example. Lol, I said no I think, then don't know why suddenly tears drop down. I don't know why, and how. But it's not totally because of you, you dumb dumb Mr Ken. Kept worrying if is your fault. -.-",1/3 only. I very fan I think, One of the reasons, is Mr Ken, kept telling me to get full marks, but then, he used 1 word, which I got VERY~ fan. 'MUST'. You MUST get full marks for next test. 2/3 is of my brothers. 1 kept calling me stupid, stupid stupid. The other one help him argue with me.

Also cannot use computer somemore if I no do well. I don't want all these to happen, I don't wan call stupid! Somemore, even you say I win them in other subjects which is;; Literature, History, Art, Mother Tongue. Nothing more, they win more than me, they win de subjects all is more important than the rest de! I only win them PSLE score, but doesn't means I will like always. I won on most subjects compared with my big bro on CA1, but doesn't mean I'll be like this forever. I want to jiayou alot, but doesn't mean I still have the courage to after this break down.

Specially for Mr Ken;;
I also, want to get full marks for next test, if not highest. But you think I can? You think I will? You think I can manage? With all the stress. I just said I don't want to get full marks cause I don't want to get anymore stress especially from you, fav teacher. I know I will sooner or later break down, I didn't expect to be now. All E3-ians put their hopes, for History in our class to surpass other class, on me. History pro, History pro, I'm proud to be that, but I can't cope with the stress. Really gonna have this break down the 2nd time, soon~. &&, I don't mind you taking me as example. I really don't mind. I only hates when I'm neglected.

Specially for Ya Shi and Yvonne;;
Thanks for accompanying me. I'm better now. ;D, and to Yvonne whom volunteer to chase after me. As running is how I destress. And to Ya Shi whom accompanied me all along till 1pm. Thanks lots, I fortunate to have a friend like you! ;DDD.

Specially for peoples who are putting hopes on me;;
I don't think I have the chance of full marks for the next test again. But I'll try my best. Mr Ken, I'll jiayou de. x]